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I kept on asking for a sign, but then I realized that there’s nothing to hope for. I shouldn’t bother anyway.

How? Tell me, how?? 😔

How? Tell me, how?? 😔

I had a dream. I just posted a part of the last memo I wrote in my phone on Tumblr. Then I had 1024 notes on it. Then I tried to read all of the responses and I saw some unexpected advices from people around me. Then I looked for your response but I was not able to read it because the professors came for further announcements of the practicum.

One of the professors gave me a small notebook where all the expenses made by the students and other matters were written. She told me to keep it. It’s confidential. I feel so honored to have her trust. Then we all came out for a run. When we returned, I checked my bag and found out that the notebook was stolen. I was crying. You wanted to comfort me but you didn’t come close because you saw that a lot of people were there surrounded me. When you found a space, you comforted me. That’s the best part.

Then, I knew that my groupmate had a secret agenda that she had to steal that notebook from me but she suddenly told the truth. Then I just returned the notebook to our professor. I didn’t want the responsibility. I felt like I was too careless.

To make me feel better, my mom bought me Ben & Jerry’s ice cream in the nearest grocery. I had a dilemma if I shall choose cherry or mango.

Then I woke up. My eyes hurt. It felt like I cried all night. This dream is so vivid.

I want to be the friend you fall hopelessly in love with. The one you take into your arms and into your bed and into the private world you keep trapped in your head. I want to be that kind of friend, the one who will memorize the things you say as well as the shape of your lips when you say them. I want to know every curve, every freckle, every shiver of your body.

I want to drown myself on my pillow for so many things. One reason is for not saying “hi” to you, my perfect stranger. Is this what people call sepanx? I woke up sad with a tear.

PS. My song for you is about to finish.

I want to drown myself on my pillow for so many things. One reason is for not saying “hi” to you, my perfect stranger. Is this what people call sepanx? I woke up sad with a tear.

PS. My song for you is about to finish.

Just give me one sign, one fucking sign, that you care.

Missing a lot of people in 3, 2, 1…

Magic! You called me via Skype. I used my phone to answer and I said, “hello.” I received no response, then you started playing a song by the band I’m currently listening to. After playing a song, you dropped the call. Then my mom told me that there’s someone outside our house singing. Then I saw it was you. She was smiling, I was surprised.

You always leave me hanging. Please give me a sign.

Summer Flings

Not a bookworm but when I started opening one, I did not stop.

The Fault in Our Stars - John Green
Flipped - Wendelin van Draanen
Eleanor and Park - Rainbow Rowell
Looking for Alaska - John Green
Meant to Be - Lauren Morill
Perks of Being a Wallflower - Stephen Chbosky
Shatter Me - Tahereh Mafi
Unravel Me - Tahereh Mafi
Destroy Me - Tahereh Mafi
Fracture Me - Tahereh Mafi
Ignite Me - Tahereh Mafi
Fifty Shades of Grey - Erika James
Fifty Shades Darker - Erika James
Fifty Shades Freed - Erika James
Unearthly - Cynthia Hand
Hallowed - Cynthia Hand
Radiant - Cynthia Hand
Boundless - Cynthia Hand
Spectacular Now - Tim Tharp
Fangirl - Rainbow Rowell
Attachments - Rainbow Rowell This Song Will Save Your Life - Leila Sales
A Mango-Shaped Space - Wendy Mass
Paper Towns - John Green

My 4-month vacation is almost over. Will open new books on December. :’)

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